What goes around. . .

Sometimes im not sure how I should feel. How long should I be upset that things are falling apart? Is there even a time limit? I hate feeling sorry for myself so I give myself a grieving period. However lately the days have been merging into each other so im not sure how much longer my grieving period should last. One thing I can say is im sick, so so so so sick of feeling down and out. I want and need it to be over. I so want to b my happy, go lucky self and sooner than later.
It just sucks to have the feeling that nobody is there for me. Or the few that are don't really want to be there but they just doing it. U know just cuz. If u don't want to be here and be happy and willing then don't do me no favors. I mean it. At the end of the day I will always be ok, im a survivor and I've made it this far on my own so I have no doubts that ill b alright in the long run.
Im just ready to get my happy back.