Secret Indiscrections

Ok So as a human I usually mind my business, If something isnt personally affecting me I let it be. No, Im not going to do anything If I see some craziness going on but I usually keep your affairs personal. Sometimes hearing (learning) the truth is harder to accept and the person usually just turns on you. So If I see your significant out with someone who isnt you, or If I know that the lines she's feeding you are just that, or If I know your about to have a real problem... I keep it to myself. I'd rather avoid all problems and confrontations, however I know if I say something its going to blow up in my face.

I have to change names to respect their privacy.

So a few weeks ago Bubba, who is married, started hanging out with a female friend, Lola. Bubba has been spending a lot of time with Lola and his wife, Betty, know nothing about it. I dont think there's anything wrong with having friends but if your partner doesnt know about it then thats the problem. So Im assuming Bubba had to make up a few white lies about his whereabouts while he was with Lola, and I think those lies including me. Im a lil upset because I dont want to get Bubba in trouble with his wife but I dont want to lie either. Theres only BUT so many times I can use the line "I dont know" or "I dont remember". Im annoyed that Bubba would put me in this positions and even though Im mad at him, for unrelated reasons, Im not going to blow up his spot. Is that Wrong? Do I owe Betty a truthful explanation even though doing so could possibly end a marriage?

I found out that my friends fiancee who was about 3 months pregnant got an abortion. Jordan, my friend is away at school, but I highly doubt he knows anything about it. I never met his fiancee, Lisa, but I've seen photos, thats how I recognized her. I was being a friend's support system when I spotted her with my own eyes at the clinic! I know it isnt my place to say anything, and I dont think I could say anything but Lisa is telling him she lost the baby. I feel horrible and my loyalties do not lie with her but Do I stick my neck out to say something? OR Let Jordan go into a marriage with Lisa, the liar?

Decisions, Decisions

Jonezster

He loves me!

So a fan of mine wrote me a poem. How sweet right? Well thanks Mike!

A touch, soft and tender.
A whisper, full of desire
A gasp of sweet surrender
As passion fuels the fire

No words spoken between them
No promises to be kept
No lies being told tonight
No looking back - no regrets

Longing to hold each other
Such precious little time
Both vowed to another
Being lonely their only crime

Tomorrow bringing sorrow
A brief moment of shame
With the memory of this one night
A release from passion's flames

she got a mean shoe GAME!

I've been drooling over these shoes for the past week! Damn you Aldo!

Laid Off?

So Im at work right now when I'd rather be elsewhere. The other ppl who are supposed to be here, ARENT. But thats no surprise, its like my coworkers cant seem to get to work on time even if there life depended on it.

Anyway I've been here since 3 on the dot, but this guy that I absoultely hate to the core is here too! Ugh, when I say I cant stand NOTHING about this man believe it. He had the nerve to tell my supervisor that there wasnt any staff in the office, even though I've been sitting in my seat since 3. So she just called my phone, asking if Im not coming in... HELLO! IM ALREADY HERE! I've been saying that this dude is a liar and he just proved my point. I seriously cannot stand that man, like Dont you think the supervisor was going to call me and confirm my location. Im telling you, dude is very lucky Im in a good mood, because I wouldve cursed his as$ straight out.

Its like this job is middle school all over again. However since IVE grown up Im not just going to knock his as$ out, Imma chill. But... If he keeps playing with me I wont be responsible for where he is found.

Jonez

Dreamers.

Dont be afraid to dream the impossible, try it out, fail and then dream all over again. You lose the battle when you stop dreaming & stop trying.

Currently Im dreamin of... becoming a nail tech, then opening my own beauty bar. I talked about this before but Im back on the trail. There has been so many things I LOVE but had to put aside because of something else that I was dreaming.

I dont think its failing, I just have a wide range of things I know Im great at and dont I owe it to myself to explore every possible option?

-Jonez

Less than 24 hrs.

Im not sure whats really good with men now a days but Im not really feeling it. When I was talking to Bill it seemed like if we didnt have sex in 24 hrs, his peen would blow off! I know that because technology makes it that much easier to get to know a person, we feel like with the right amount of nicely answered text messages that we fully know a person. Well thats effin wrong! I need to hang out with you, vibe with you and vice versa. What makes you think that Im even going to want to do ANYTHING with you after knowing you for less than 24 hrs? Im not!

So I recently met this guy, and no its nothing to be excited about. It was like I just meet him and a couple of hours later hes asking me "If I think we'd make a good match". Im confused because I JUST met you! I have absolutely no idea if we'd make a good match or if we'd even become friends. I dont know anything about you to make even a simple decision about your personality or even your mental stability. So how on earth would I be able to tell you if we'd make a good couple. I was tempted to ask you the same question but I already figured you'd say yes and have us married off in three months with a baby five months after that.

Of course I want someone who wants to be in a committed relationship. Yes I want a hunny but I want to take my time in getting to know him. I dont see a reason to rush into something that Im going to end up regretting because I have no hesitations dumping you and starting my search over. But fellas for the future, Im going to need yall to relax with trying to boo a chick up less than 24 hrs! (laughing but so serious)

Misery

Im not sure who I feel more sorry for... Bob or #2.

For those of you who are just joining us on Tristanjonez.blogspot, Bob is my ex boyfriend of two yrs ago, I know, and #2 is his girlfriend/exgirlfriend. She goes by #2 on here because she shares my 'real' first name and since I consider myself the original... well you get it. Anyway, like I was saying Im not sure who to feel more sorry for. Its a twisted love triangle, well no not triangle, more like a love circle because Bob still tries to get back with me but Im 110% done with that situation. In my heart I know I will prolly never get back with that man, I've lost all trust and respect for him when he cheated. I forgave him yrs ago BUT I cant move on WITH him. However no matter how much I tell him this, he still believes theres a 1% chance that we will eventually work it out.

Then theres #2, She seems like she still wants to be with Bob, but they supposedly broke up. I dont believe it for a minute, due to actions I said I would keep to myself but that right there lets me know that all is semi well. I mean I wouldnt do THAT for a man who I wasnt still in love with. Ya'll remember when she hit my cell phone telling me things going on in their relationship? Well if its true that he was cheating on you and being abusive why would you even want to put it all on the line for him? I dont care if you have 10 kids, there is a lid for every top and u cant make something work that just isnt. What makes matters worst is I KNOW he is telling her some bullish about the relationship. How do I know because he tells me! Honestly thats the main reason why I'd never go back, how can I trust that you wont be telling #2 intimate things about our relationship? Since I cant trust that you wont, I cant rock with you.

I love a bad bish! I love a chick who can hold her OWN down and dont need a man to give her money to get to work! I love a woman who lives life by her own rules, and If a man isnt handling his business she knows how to let him go and move on to the next one. If #2 is playing him for a fool, then go ahead hunny and do ya thing but remember Karma is soooo effin real! If they have an understanding that they are going to see other people and just screw each other, then my hat goes off to them both. However Im not convinced!

I just wish he stopped inviting me into his relationship. None of what he is going now is any of my concern. My #1 concern is his brother, Isaiah. If it wasnt for Zaya, Bob would not be in contact with me, cuz my number would've been changed. Im learning how to be a bigger person through and through but I do wish both Bob & #2 nothing but the best of luck in everything they do.

-Jonezster