Misery

Im not sure who I feel more sorry for... Bob or #2.

For those of you who are just joining us on Tristanjonez.blogspot, Bob is my ex boyfriend of two yrs ago, I know, and #2 is his girlfriend/exgirlfriend. She goes by #2 on here because she shares my 'real' first name and since I consider myself the original... well you get it. Anyway, like I was saying Im not sure who to feel more sorry for. Its a twisted love triangle, well no not triangle, more like a love circle because Bob still tries to get back with me but Im 110% done with that situation. In my heart I know I will prolly never get back with that man, I've lost all trust and respect for him when he cheated. I forgave him yrs ago BUT I cant move on WITH him. However no matter how much I tell him this, he still believes theres a 1% chance that we will eventually work it out.

Then theres #2, She seems like she still wants to be with Bob, but they supposedly broke up. I dont believe it for a minute, due to actions I said I would keep to myself but that right there lets me know that all is semi well. I mean I wouldnt do THAT for a man who I wasnt still in love with. Ya'll remember when she hit my cell phone telling me things going on in their relationship? Well if its true that he was cheating on you and being abusive why would you even want to put it all on the line for him? I dont care if you have 10 kids, there is a lid for every top and u cant make something work that just isnt. What makes matters worst is I KNOW he is telling her some bullish about the relationship. How do I know because he tells me! Honestly thats the main reason why I'd never go back, how can I trust that you wont be telling #2 intimate things about our relationship? Since I cant trust that you wont, I cant rock with you.

I love a bad bish! I love a chick who can hold her OWN down and dont need a man to give her money to get to work! I love a woman who lives life by her own rules, and If a man isnt handling his business she knows how to let him go and move on to the next one. If #2 is playing him for a fool, then go ahead hunny and do ya thing but remember Karma is soooo effin real! If they have an understanding that they are going to see other people and just screw each other, then my hat goes off to them both. However Im not convinced!

I just wish he stopped inviting me into his relationship. None of what he is going now is any of my concern. My #1 concern is his brother, Isaiah. If it wasnt for Zaya, Bob would not be in contact with me, cuz my number would've been changed. Im learning how to be a bigger person through and through but I do wish both Bob & #2 nothing but the best of luck in everything they do.

-Jonezster