Im a Fat Girl!

Seriously the Mickey D's on 50th & 9th ave have the BEST chicken nuggets!! I had them recently and I had to order again. I usually eat them with either Chipotle BBQ sauce or Buffalo Sauce but I didnt need any sauce to enhance the flavor. Im kinda droolin' thinking about them. Too bad its 4am, because I would def go down there right now!

Jonez

Pleasantly Plump

I cant seem to contain myself this morning. I woke up with a smile on my face! I smile for the life I lead, for the few people who I allow access into my World, for the fact that people can change and do the right thing If thats in fact what they want to do. Its so easy to get caught up in the bs of everyday living that you forget to look at the beautiful things around you. Today, thats exactly what Im going to do. Im going to enjoy my surroundings, Im going to stop and smell the flowers and I may even buy some, bring them home and just relax in the presence of nature. Life happens to flash by so quickly that Im caught trying to keep up.

As the weather starts to get nicer, take the time to do the little things. Hang outside in the park, and watch the kids play. Or walk to your destination instead of taking the train, just do things that you wouldnt normally do and I promise you, something will happen. You cant open your eyes to whats out there if your not looking.

-Jonez

Expected -> Un

So today has kinda been a "WOW' of a day. It started with my friend Kayla, she had me listen to her voicemail in which her most recent ex boyfriend was trying to yell at her about a damn phone bill. However when she told him to simply call their service provider, he said he wasnt going to do that because he knew she wasnt paying her part of the bill. Smh! Im like why not call Sprint and have all this confusion cleared up without having to go back and forth between each other. I figure the dude just wants to have a reason to call, instead of stating his purpose and moving on. I think sharing a bill with your partner can turn out to be one of the most annoying things ever! I've been there, done that and would advise anyone not to go down that route.

Then, I get two texts from my man friend telling me he cant be what I want and expect him to be. I had to reread the texts twice because I couldnt for the life of me understand where that ish was coming from. I've made it my business to not have expectations of folks because that just leads to disappointment, so when he said that I knew something was up. Instead of him being a man and saying that he no longer wanted to be my friend, or that he was dealing with someone else, he choose to take the coward way out. I mean how can I respect that? After that I deleted him, fb, phone, etc, but then he has a nerve to feel that was effed up! Like seriously?

Lastly, Its raining!

-Jonez

Spoil ME, Spoil ME!

Hey people, Obviously I believe every once in a while a person deserves to be spoiled! I mean especially if you are working a full time job, going to school and doing just about everything in between, and all for yourself. I really doesnt matter if your a man or a woman, both genders deserve to be pampered and NOT by ya damn self! Of course I can run myself a bubble bath, cook myself dinner, give myself a pedicure or manicure, but theres something different, special when you have someone else who wants to do those things for you! I cant remember the last time that someone took the time to do anything for me, without me having to ask. If the shoe was on the other foot, and it usually is, I would do a mountain of things for you. Whether you was THAT special or not. Just last week I sent my bestfriend Tracy a card, my niece Esse a gift set from Soaptopia.com and my lil brother a gift for obtaining his GED. I didnt need to be asked to do these things, I did them because I wanted to enhance someone's day, week or whatever.

I dont want to get flowers or gifts for my birthday, give me those things on the most random day you could possibly think of. I want to feel the same way I make others feel. I already know that people arent me, so the things I would do they may not however, think of things you want done for you and do that to/for someone else. This weekend, Im going to be getting spoiled but by my own account and that's just fine. Sometimes when others havent picked up on the clue, screw it, Spoil yourself!

Jonezster

Milk Carton?!

Kid Cudi WHERE ARE YOU???

While listening to the new album of B.O.B., My mind wandered to Kid Cudi, and what hes up to right now. I know he was in the series on HBO, 'How to make it in America" but that has been since wrapped. If you see him or hear of any new projects he has going on, hip me to it!!! I miss you Kid!

-Jonezster

Its Jonezster!

Ok So I know you're wondering why on Earth did I change my blog name, Well I changed it because certain folks was trying to bring me down. This is MY blog, so I get to write whatever I choose to, if you dont like the things I write about thats ok, you do not have to venture over to my side of the World. I've always been very opinionated and I think Im going to stay that way. I write about the things I see, experiences, my future, and whatever else I choose to write about. I know I shouldn't have to change the name of my blog or the content either however Im a lil tired of the prying eyes. And yes I know, the more I put myself out there, there are always going to be critiques but as of right now I can shield myself from the bs.

Over the weekend, my stupid a$s ex, Bob, hit me up talking all kinds of foolishness. Like dude, Im not longer your girlfriend so I dont have to answer any questions that you may have about anything. Im not sure why he even still have my number like dude, your dead to me. (I'll let yall know more about that situation) But I was just tired of him, and others, having the privilege of a window into my Life. From now on his access has been denied.

-The Jonezster

she got a mean shoe GAME!

she got a mean shoe GAME!

These shoes are my ode to the '80's and the days of wearing platform shoes and being groovy!! Even though the US was goin thru many changes, it seemed like a lot of people were just rocking out and enjoying life, we need to get back to that state of mind... And without getting high! Cop these at Bakers shoes, retail about 60$ and come in four colors.

Yes man?

I've never been a 'yes man', Ive always been my own person. I choose to tell you how Im feeling but I word it in a way to be wary of your feelings. I think people need more 'friends' around that are willing to tell the truth and not just say something because at that moment it sounds good. Im going to be your friend regardless, whether I like what you're saying or not. I have to accept my flaws with my good qualities. Im just tired of people acting like Im cursing their name when I tell them the truth and not just feed them some bs. Maybe if you surround yourself with true friends, you'll have less of the problems that you usually end up having. Just sayin'

Jonez

Love like You!

Yooooo Im so elated right now. My little brother wrote me again, I mean we write each other often, its our routine. We chose to write each other over phone calls because its a bit more intimate and most times you cant say everything you want to say in person. Sometimes out of not having the exact words but most times out of fear. You don't want the person to judge you on the spot and if they are going to judge you'd rather not be there for it. So basically we're pen pals, but Im not going to go into how we are siblings, just know & understand that we are. So I've been enjoying getting to know my little brother, its been a joy!! I can be depressed, upset, angry, all the negative emotions but then I get a phone call or a letter from Isaiah and my world is instantly better. We do hang out often and I have the best time with him, its gotten to a point that the silence between us is comfortable. Just to be in his company puts my own mind at ease. I get so emotional when its time for me to go home but its those times that I treasure him the most.

In the letter I received today I (almost) cried! I mean Zaya is just so sweet and sincere and brutally honest with me. Its funny because Im the older sibling but yet he treats me as if Im his younger sister. He can be very over protective! I think growing up I've always wanted that. Someone who would stick up for me and keep people in check when they was bothering me on the playground. Yes, I know you're thinking but you do have an older sister, but my sister is 12yrs older than me and definitely wasnt checking for me. She was living her own life and still to this day it shows just how not close we are in our relationship. My sister and I are more like strangers who just happened to be blood related AND for the record I dont have any animosity towards her just dont regard her as much more than a familiar stranger.

Its like Im finally getting the sibling relationship that I've always wanted, needed. I adore my little brother and I cant wait until he moves back from Upstate because I will be spending all of my free time with him. Theres so much of the World that I want to show him. Plus Zaya is like a sponge, he WANTS to soak up Everything. I love being the older, more experienced big sister but he lets me know that its him who is in Charge!! (Laughing)

-Jonez

P.S. I love you just as much as you love me Isaiah. And my promise still stands! xoxo

First come Marriage, Then the baby!

So its true, as you get older you start to think about things that normally you wouldnt consider like getting married and having a family. Since I was 4 I told my dad I would never get married or have children. Well I got pregnant in *08, so much for that! However I've still never been married. Yes I've been proposed to by two different men in my lifetime, and obviously nothing materialized out of that. I've always been selective in the type of guys that I choose to date but I think now that Im looking for something long term, I just got even more selective. I dont necessarily mean to be BUT I want someone who's going to be here for the very long road a head.

I just finished talking to my lil brother Isaiah, and he told me he's sending a mother's day card since I want to be a mother. I actually had to laugh at that! I mean I do want the whole marriage, baby thing but Im not in a rush to get those things. I know they will come in due time and Im learning how to be patient. It just caught me off guard that my baby brother would send me something like that, maybe I have been talking about it more than I realized.

I think Im a lot more aware of the things I want to do and the place in my life I want to be. Especially if Im thinking of baby things and being a wife. Maybe its true as you get older you think of different things. I mean at one stage of my life I was thinking of proms and graduations and at another dating and partying, I figure Im just at the stage in my life where wedding bells and crumb snatchers (babies) just make the most sense.

T.Jonez

Dont you Deserve better?

As much as it pains me to sit back and not say anything, thats exactly what Im going to do. I hate the fact that I cant be 100% honest with you. However I do value the friendship that we have. I know that if I let you know exactly how I feel about your boyfriend you arent going to like what I have to say about him. I mean I know you like that Im blunt and I express how Im feeling but if it was something that could possibly hurt your feelings would u want me to share?

As much as I want to shield you from the World and of things that can and will hurt you I cant make you the woman I want you to be. I have to let you live your life in the manner that YOU see fit. All I can do is encourage you to do better and support the choices you've made. I just hope that my silence doesnt get confused for acceptance. But after you've vented all your frustrations to me, dont you think you deserve better?

Tristan

This is NOT a test

Ok people, I know I havent written in a few days so please forgive me?? I've been busy living life, and learning a lot of new life lessons. I have a few things on my chest and I wouldnt be who I am if I didnt ruffle your feathers. Now, Lets keep in mind that none of the things I write are to hurt anyone's feelings. This blog is more of a way to inform people of things that they themselves may not be able to see clearly about themselves. AND for the record, if anyone would like to create a blog on things that I myself do not see clearly about myself then please feel free to do so and I'll take numerous notes on your honest opinions.

-Jonez