Love like You!

Yooooo Im so elated right now. My little brother wrote me again, I mean we write each other often, its our routine. We chose to write each other over phone calls because its a bit more intimate and most times you cant say everything you want to say in person. Sometimes out of not having the exact words but most times out of fear. You don't want the person to judge you on the spot and if they are going to judge you'd rather not be there for it. So basically we're pen pals, but Im not going to go into how we are siblings, just know & understand that we are. So I've been enjoying getting to know my little brother, its been a joy!! I can be depressed, upset, angry, all the negative emotions but then I get a phone call or a letter from Isaiah and my world is instantly better. We do hang out often and I have the best time with him, its gotten to a point that the silence between us is comfortable. Just to be in his company puts my own mind at ease. I get so emotional when its time for me to go home but its those times that I treasure him the most.

In the letter I received today I (almost) cried! I mean Zaya is just so sweet and sincere and brutally honest with me. Its funny because Im the older sibling but yet he treats me as if Im his younger sister. He can be very over protective! I think growing up I've always wanted that. Someone who would stick up for me and keep people in check when they was bothering me on the playground. Yes, I know you're thinking but you do have an older sister, but my sister is 12yrs older than me and definitely wasnt checking for me. She was living her own life and still to this day it shows just how not close we are in our relationship. My sister and I are more like strangers who just happened to be blood related AND for the record I dont have any animosity towards her just dont regard her as much more than a familiar stranger.

Its like Im finally getting the sibling relationship that I've always wanted, needed. I adore my little brother and I cant wait until he moves back from Upstate because I will be spending all of my free time with him. Theres so much of the World that I want to show him. Plus Zaya is like a sponge, he WANTS to soak up Everything. I love being the older, more experienced big sister but he lets me know that its him who is in Charge!! (Laughing)

-Jonez

P.S. I love you just as much as you love me Isaiah. And my promise still stands! xoxo