I’m Ready

After a successful relationship at 17, then a string of broken hearts (lessons learned) maybe I'm more afraid of a relationship being successful than I am of getting hurt. We (woman) are looking for prince charming however its more likely that we’ll find prince ahole first. So what do you actually do when you really find the TYPE of man that you have always been looking for?

I'm an open book, always been. I wear my emotions on my sleeve but I'm no dummy (insider). I try to see the best in everyone, see past their flaws and mistakes, look at the man they are. For years I would see the man they wanted to become and not who they were. You cannot fall in love with who you want them to be,  its impossible. I’ve heard it all before! I look back now and shake my head at my ignorance. I cant put all the blame on them for being who they were to me because I put blinders over my eyes and allowed it. As a woman I needed to set the rules, let a man know how I was going to be treated. I set the pace but even the most vocal and opinionated female can drop the ball.

To answer my own question, When you find the type of man that you’ve been looking for you enjoy it. You put 110% of effort into making the relationship work. I know you may have some reservations about whatever but don't bring those doubts into a new situation. Go into it like its going to work, make sure you use communication. Men cannot read our minds so let them know what your feeling. Since I let go of all the feelings (negative & positive) for Bob I’ve allowed myself to heal completely without even knowing it. I looking forward to my time being spent with Fox.

Yes there's an actual person willing to deal with all my crazy! (Laughing) The more I talk to and get to know him the more I want to know. I recently texted the exes I was still communicating with and ‘cut dem off’. Why do I need to talk frequently with an ex when I know I’m not going back to that situation. Don't get me wrong I have nothing but love for them and wish them the absolutely best but my life is going in a different direction. For the first time in a while, I'm in a good place. I'm uber happy! Did you see that Fox? I have someone who not only supports me, he also encourages me to do better, pushes me, and tells me all the time shit I don't want to hear but need to. I just hope that he keeps this up even after we are out of the honeymoon stage. Now that I’ve acknowledge him to myself, I hope things continue to go as smoothly as they have been. And Fox you’ll start to hear more yes’s when you ask to take me out.

-Jonez aka SexyFace & Sexyfine