Only If Only

I learned a lil bit of information today, that kinda made me say hmm. My lil brother called me right before I jetted off to work. Usually he only calls during the weekend but there are a few exceptions. I would like to think of it as the closer we become the more he wants to speak to me. I love that he wants to call, talk to me, write letters, send photos, etc, It just lets me know that Im obviously doing something right.

So as some of you may or may not know, my lil brother and I arent blood related. I, at one point, dated his older brother but that relationship didnt work out. However I had already promised my lil brother that I would be here for him. So I could'nt just turn my back on him even though the relationship had fallen apart. So its been a good two years and change that Bob and I have been broken up and I can finally say, IM OVER HIM! Yes I know it took a lil while but yup I've did it.

Im starting to think my lil brother wants us back together. I mean its kinda like a kid who's parents go thru a divorce. Even though he knows that will never happen, he still wishes for it. Zaya, my lil brother, told me of a dream he had today, the dream was Bob and I going to see him together. I told him we can still hang out with him together but as friends, why do we have to be involved? I know he loves his brother very much and want to see him happy but hes forgetting a BIG piece of info... his brother has a girlfriend now.

Zaya and I dont know the official status of their relationship but either way its really no concern of mine. I cant worry about who my ex is currently sleeping with, Im pretty sure he wouldn't be concerned about minor details of my life. I know for a fact that only thing he would be concerned with is that Im treating Zaya right and doing all the things I said I would do. So even though my biggest joy is making my lil brother happy, I unfortunately wont be able to make his dream a reality.

Tristan J