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I have so many emotions going through my mind right now! Im angry, happy, sad everything!!! Wtf? Maybe I am the crazy one of the family... OR NOT! I dont know, lately I've been feeling so alone. I feel like nobody really knows the REAL me. Except I can't let anyone get toooo close, they might fu(k me over. ARGHHHH Depressed maybe? I've been missing my first love like crazy, especially with the rewrite of this damn book. I could always talk to him, even when we werent in a relationship. FUKC!! Maybe Im dying?? I wake up everyday with a headache, EVERYDAY! Stress, possibly... Who knows? Im not a damn doctor, sh!t Im barely a writer.

Im isolated even though I want to be noticed & accepted by my peers. I show who I am, but tend to pull back because people just seem not to get it. I do love my few friends though. Then LA is looming over my head. I want to go but I am supposed to go? WTF (again)... -Tristan J