Wednesday, March 10, 2010

The boy is MINE!

Do you know how hard it is to be in love with someone who is in love with someone else? Well I do! Sometimes in life we make decisions and we have to stand by those decisions we make even though after time has gone by you find yourself still thinking of that someone. What I feel, still remains hidden from them and even if they knew I wouldn’t allow them to act on my feelings. I cant be responsible for someone knowing what it feels like to have a broken heart because of me. Yea I’m the classic martyr! To sacrifice my happiness for the happiness of someone I don't even know is everything. I’m not even sure If a relationship would even work because of the things I’ve recently found out.

Maybe that’s why I'm still single. (shrugs shoulders) I mean my subconscious knows I'm still in love, or in thought for someone else. So how can I get involved with another man? I'm not going to be able to give him my all since I have another man on my mind. Why couldn't be love be so simple? Why when a man hurt you, you could just brush those feelings you once shared with him off? I know I'm only human but I'm sick of feeling something for him when I know he has moved on. I think it wouldn't hurt so much if he was at least single but he isn't.

Yes, I admit it! I still love him but a relationship with him will never happen. I used to think that we both just needed time to grow as people before we could grow as a unit. But life has thrown a dagger into my already bruised heart. I wish him nothing but happiness with the lucky girl who is with him now. I know this is coming out of the blue but I’ve been holding it in since the break up. And most times when you say it out loud, you begin the healing process. Tonight, I’ve cried my last tear for Bob and its time that I truly try to move on.

Goodbye Bob, Finally!

~Tristan J

2 comments:

  1. I say go after what u want only u n his happiness should count if he WANs to be with the person he's with nw leave him alone . But really ask him is he happy and that's what he wants . Maybe he's with the next girl because he don't want to show how he really feels. Patience is a virtue and good things comes to those who wait......I was n a situation like so my self n he moved on with the next girl that following month n that made me think did he really love me or was he already messing around ..... But realized after we spoke n he told me how hurt he was over the break up n other things n he told me that he was so happy with the women that he was with he said that he wanted to be back with me but didn't knw how to approuch the situation without her being hurt.... Then he told me that he had to choose his happiness over hers..... I think you should do the same thing n see what happens with you.... You'll know if it's true love or not.....

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  2. Wow, I never get advice from a reader so first let me say thank you. I cant open that door with him again, I refuse to. We've spoken since he's been with his new girlfriend and I've asked if he was happy and even though their relationship is far from perfect he is willing to work on it. So who am I to stop that? We had our moment and now its time to move on. I mean who's to say its even going to be a success this time? Am I feeling like I want to be with him because its actually love or because he is now with someone else? I have more questions than answers but its one thing I know, she (the nu gf) cares ALOT about him. I wont allow his leaving her because it will DEF hurt her. I know what a break up feels like and I wont be the reason another girl's feelings get hurt. As time goes on the sun wil shine again for me, I'll meet someone and he'll take my mind of my ex. As for right now, I have to play the cards I've been dealt... and its ok.
    But I'll say this, I do believe in Karma and if its meant to be it will. But thanks for caring enough to even write to me. As you can see I dont get many comments. (Laughing)
    -Jonez

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