How do you decide what to fight for? What to stand up for? When & How do you pick your battles and your wars?
Today I find myself faced with a problem unlike any other I’ve ever had because Its not my future at stake. Growing up anything I did, I did because I wanted to. I had a great relationship with my mother and she believed in me enough to allow me the freedom to make mistakes. No I didn’t have free roam to do whatever, regardless of what you believe I did have a rule or two, but my mother carefully watched as I found, through the fail and succeed method, what worked for me. Obviously this method was one that worked well for me and her, but communication was the key to it all. My mother happily allowed me to express myself to her, listened to all the things I wanted to do (trust it was alot) but she took the time to tell me what she wanted & expected from me in return. For example, If I stayed out then no matter what time I came in the house, I had to get up and go to school then next day and on time. I kept my end of the bargain, and on every Sunday night I was allowed to go to HammerJack’s with my friends. (Memories)
Im now in a position where I can, help for the greater good but in fighting for what I want the results are still unknown. I’ve always been the outspoken one for something I think is right. As I get older I’ve learned when to actually shut the hell up but do I do that now, when so much is on the line? This very problem has kept me up the whole night today but I’m still unsure of what to do. If only my mother was here now to be my backbone, my strength, then maybe I wouldn’t be such a punk. Yea yea I know, I act like Im not scared of anything but hey Im only human. (Strange huh!)
Jonez
I dnt have a comment about what u wrote if u don't mind I just need a little advice about this guy I've been seeing. He has a lot of female friends but doesn't want me with any male friends.I thought a relationship is suppose to be an equal . If he thinks I been talking to another guy he would either choke me or talk to his ex's about the situation even our sex life....knowing I'm not ok with his ex's in our business cuz they may try to use whatever he's says againt me to be with him. He say he not interested on them but it's hard to tell I love him dearly but dnt know how to walk away.I scared of being hurt more than what I am n I dnt wanna hurt him either.....
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