{SMFH}

So as a silly girl, I caught feelings for someone. No, I wasnt in love but I liked "VA", he seemed like a good dude when I met him and got to know him. After a few months, its like who the fuk are you? This isnt the person I got to know, and actually like. So anyway he has been screwing up like crazy for the past few weeks and I deserve to be treated way better! So I started to distance myself from him, but then he is like "Tris come on" So I give in and continue to talk to him but Im still reserved. OKAY.... So this as$hole goes away to Italy last week to see if he can make a bball team overseas. I called him (& left messages) on friday and Saturday of last week, but he never answered any of my calls. We were supposed to hang out on that Sunday before he left. I had went out drinking the night before so I had a crazy hangover on Sunday. VA texts me "Hey miss lady, what are you doing?"
I respond "Im resting"
He replies "O Damn U are"
That was the last I'd heard from him, until this saturday while I was at work. What kills me is the excuses he always have! If your cellular phone is cut off, you can still use the pay phone to get in contact with me. Its really not that hard cuz if the shoes was on the other foot (Mine) I would've found a way to reach him. Its so fukin annoying to keep hearing excuses, I can take truth better than a lie. So he asks me if I would like to see him today, I say sure I have a few minutes to spare. I have to be at work at 5pm, however I have today off, but this motherfuker still havent called to confirm where we are meeting at. The games MEN play make my head spin, trying to keep up with the foolishness. Now do you all see why IM PRACTICING BEING CELIBATE? I would hate to give myself to a man to have him play with me, I'll be going to Rikers for murder. I think the best advice I would give myself, is to continue to focus on my writing career, and the other sh!t will just fall into place when its time.

-Tristan Jonez