Seriously?

Even though the weather is gorgeous in NYC, I'm feeling so . . . Down? I just don't feel my happy chipper self. I'm not sure if it has to do with me racking my brain about the move to LA, me staying in NYC, my ex or just I don't know. I really wish my mother was here to help me make a decision! I'm so torn between the right thing to do and what I want to do. It's possible they are the same thing but how the hell am I supposed to know that? I don't have a crystal ball? Fukc!! Do you know how frustrating this is? I really want to call out from work today and chill in the park. Just to relax my mind! To NOT think about anything, but watch the birds and bees. To envy nature because their futures are already mapped out. Argh, well I'm on the two train now trying to mellow out to Mary J but my brain isn't trying to settle itself down. Someone shoot me, please!

-TJ
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