Anyway my dad sent me a text early morning yesterday saying "Follow your dreams, love dad." That ish bugged me out so much that I had to reread it twice and send him a reply saying "Is this my dad?" (Laughing)But seriously this was the very FIRST time my dad has openly supported my decision to write since I told him I was serious about writing. At first I thought my dad just wanted me to follow in the plan that he had set for myself but as I get older and understand him better, I guess he stayed neutral just in case this writing ish didn't work out for me. I'm assuming the move to Los Angeles lets him know I'm very serious about my career and this is the ultimate way to show him. I've always been private especially when it came to my father. I've always been guarded because my father is known to flip things to his advantage. So when it came to my writing, I kept just how passionate I was about it because I didn't want him to feel like it was a passing fad.
In the past Ive told other family members what I wanted to do and I didn't get their full support either and i think that's what eventually led to that (dream) demise. So with writing being much closer and more personal, I took my time letting everyone get to know me as a writer. Now that I'm so knee deep into the game, a person approval doesn't really matter. I know I'm talented, or better yet, I believe I'm talented and I can only get better with time.
But when I got that text from my dad actually encouraging me I knew then I had to hit the ground running. Its like WOW its not just about following my dreams but its about showing him that all my hard work wasn't for nothing. He also revealed that he once had a dream but 'life' got in the way and he never went back to make his dreams come true. I honestly don't ever want to be that girl. You know? That girl who journeys back in her mind remembering things she couldve done if she hadn't been so afraid to do them.I want to be like hell yea I have no regrets or what ifs, I did what I thought was the right thing for me at the time. If something doesn't work out there is always a lesson to be learned!
I want to put myself in a position to where I can help others. My dad is a writer as well, or he used to be, he believes my writing talent comes from him and he could possibly be right. When I first told him about my wanting to write he let me read through his portfolio of poetry, some of which was very emotional but good. I know one of the first things I'm going to do when I'm able to, is try and get my dad's poetry published. What kinds of daughter would I be if I didn't? (Smile)
JONEZ, DADDY'S BABY!
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