Thursday, May 21, 2009

Choice vs Life

As some of you may know, I was pregnant last year (what everyone believed was a girl) I had a missed abortion. It means my baby aborted itself while in my stomach but never miscarried. I lost my baby at 8 weeks but for whatever reason it stayed attached to me. I didn't find out until I was about 16 weeks when the doctors tried to hear a heartbeat and didn't. I got a sonogram but I knew something was wrong when the technician called in the doctor. Of all my doctors appt this was the only one that my ex boyfriend went to and I was so grateful for him. Bob was so extremely supportive and as understanding as he could possibly be. I remember coming home from the hospital and crying to sleep and waking up and everything associated with the baby was put away.

When I first told my family, I was pregnant, they took it like was bad news but I knew in my heart that could never be bad news! My sibling took it upon herself to tell the rest of the family even though it was my news to tell. However it didn't matter couldn't no one make me abort, even before my baby was born, it was loved. Even though I never had an abortion I do believe in a womans right to choose. It shouldn't be anyones decision besides the female, especially the governments decision. I've always said I would rather someone to abort than to have it and throw it in the trash. The vibe in an abortion clinic is so somber, almost as if you can feel the pain in the other room. As I wait in the waiting room, I wish I could be inside to comfort and soothe. I look around to only find mothers, boyfriends, best friends, sisters, husbands all here to support and be the backbone these women need right now. My heart really goes out to all involved.

-Jonez


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