I told her what she was doing was wrong and she needed to make better decisions. I told her, my mother would be extremely disgusted with the way things was going with my niece. My aunt started to cry but I felt no sympothy for her because she knew I was right. To my surprise my niece appeared and instantly gave me a hug. She's a softy so I knew she wouldn't be able to hold tears back if she saw my "aunt" crying. I went on to tell my "aunt" that because of the respect I had for my mother I wouldn't disrespect her but I no longer felt anything towards the aunt that I once loved so much. When I saw her husband and son walking towards us, I threw my hoodie over my head and walked away.
The dream felt so damn real! I felt the wind, I heard the dogs barking and running through the grass. I saw the hurt and pain in my niece eyes. I saw she only wanted to be loved and understood. She wanted to live life as a teenager and to not have to deal with the bullshit of her family. I feel so helpless!! I want to do all that I can for her but with the type of schedule I have, it's hard to be as stable as I would need to be for her. I would be delighted if she could live with me but I'm between cities myself. I pray that my mother would give me the insight on what to do but as of today I haven't heard anything. I wish my mother was here, if she was sh!t would not be like this.
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