What do you do when your too scared to go home? What happens when there isn't any one you can turn to? What's the next move when you are already cornered? I ask myself these questions everyday coming home from school. School is my outlet, my temporary form of escape. I'm due at home promptly at 3:45 sharp and not a minute late. I wish I could run away but I'm only 14, with no permanent destination in sight. Im scared of leaving and being found again, lord knows what will happen to me then. Its hard to deal with most nights but I manage. Some nights are better than others but there are the times when I'm holding on for dear life. I want to show the scars instead of hiding behind makeup. Make the world see my type of ugly. I hold my tears back, refusing to let her get satisfaction from her evil deeds. No more wishing, only praying that she stops. Standing in front of the door contemplating to finally run, but now I cant move. Trying to talk, but lost for all the words. I can't walk away and risk the same thing happening to my little sister. I scream "Help! Somebody please, Help me!" I run out, trying to get someones attention but nobody stops for me. I scream as loud as I can "Please Somebody, I need help save me!" Still Im invisible. I refuse to cry and don't think I could even I wanted to. No body's coming, not for me anyway. Little black girl in the hood, help never comes for me.
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